santa clause is comming to town

welp, x-mas is a grand total of 9 days away and of course, being the procrastinator-extrordinair that i am, i have alot of shopping left to do.  i left my sister a message on friday telling her to call me back and of course, the bitch never called back.  so again, i called on sunday night.  i told her that i need the babys size so that i can buy him a x-mas present for his very 1st x-mas.  once again, no calll back.  its like i want to rip her fucking head off.  why is she so gawsh damned inconsiderate?  it would take her a grand total of like, 2 minutes to call me back and give me his size.  why the fuck wont she call?  everyone says shes to busy with the baby.  to busy for a 2 minute phone call?  on thanksgiving i told my dad i just wanted to forget about her and he tells me”  well, theres one problem with that.  shes your sister”  i told him “well that seems to mean way more to me than it does to her”  he just needs to shut up.  who in the hell is he?  its his fault i dont have either of my sisters.  him and his stupid bitch.  sometimes i think that roxanne doesnt really mean anything by her neglectiveness to call me back.  i think she is just… well, thats just the way she is.  i wouldnt be suprised anyways.  its like right now i want to call her but whats the point?  i can call over and over again but it is always to no avail.  i shouldntr stress out over it b/c i keep telling myself, i didnt have a sister for 19 years.  why is it that i need one so bad now?  i was actually very happy as an only child.  i never wanted and brothers or sisters.  its just that, i have a nephew now.  if i have no relationship with her kids, then ill never have any nieces or nephews.  i mean sure nathans brother and sisters could have kids but it wont be the same.  bleh, i think ill go get some cheese to go with my whine.  it is lunch afterall.

bye bye

~dawn