no work for dawn today

thats right, dawn is off today. im not feeling so hot so i stayed home. i cant believe that today is the 23rd and my 1 year anniversary at PAS is the 1st. in some ways it seems like iv been there forever but in other ways it seems like a short amout of time. i dunno. i do know that i dont want to be there forever tho. i just feel like i have more potential than to just sit and answer phones all day ya know? but i definetly dont want to move up to biller either. i like my receptionist job but i just want more for myself in life.

anyways, friday is me and nathans 2 1/2 year anniversary. i really dont intend on celebrating it b/c once you pas a year i think celebrating halfs is kinda weird but i do intend to aknowledge it. two and a half years is a long time.

my dad moved to nevada this week. he wants me to go visit him btu im like, why the hell cant he ever come visit me? im not gonna drive all the way to bum fuck nevada if he never comes to see me. it really pisses me off that a few months b4 were gonna move like 20 mins away from him, he picks up and moves away. and there taking that stupid ass cat with them. that fucken cat dont even like my dad. uggh. that man is nothing but drama i swear.

as far as my sisteris concerned, im gonna put that on the back burner for a while and wait for her to call me. i dont want to be the only one making any effort to have a relationship with her. fuck that. if she wants to talk to me shell call. and if not then to bad for her. what can i do ya know? it kindof hurts me when i think of how exited i was to find her and talk to her, and im making all this effort to talk to her and she is just brushing me off. but what can i do? i cant force her. shell come around, i hope.

anyhow g2g

~dawn