When things are too beautiful, I smash them to pieces

It has been a month since I have texted D….

I won’t text him.. I refuse it.

I love him so much… but it isn’t doing me any good to keep hanging on to a ghost.

I had that dream about him.. Where he was saying * I only need a couple more months * …. I don’t think that I am psychic .. but at the end of the day I wish I was… I really wish that in a couple months he would come running back to me…

I just know…. he is gone..

Forever.

My 3 friends from up north told me the other day that they are planning on coming down in Feb. to visit me… I AM BEYONDDDDDD excited. I was thinking that they had just forgot about me… I can’t wait to see my girls.

I was supposed to see Fuckboi this weekend.. but he was being nothing but an asshole.. So I basically told him to fuck off…. It is done. I am done with him.

I deleted his number from my phone.

I bought a FITBIT Charge 3 today… I am really going to try and make big changes in my life.. I need to take care of myself….

I will start tomorrow!

I love you guys.. than you for reading my diary and leaving kind notes.

*hugs*