Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you…. You are my only one…..

Well, against my parents better judgment I have been secretly moving this job offer along behind their back. They fucking blew up on me Saturday night and ruined EVERYTHING.. Attacked me from every angle and then said that I was the one to always TURN THINGS ON THEM… TO MAKE THEM LOOK LIKE THE BAD GUYS!

Fuck that…

I got an email today asking for 5 references…. I just finished that. I want to see what they have to to offer me. I have been looking at different apartments.

There is this really beautiful house.. that I would be sharing with another male and female.. However, it is next to a creek.. I would have my own bedroom and bathroom… WITTTTHHHHH a ClAW FOOT TUBBBBB!!! That’s all I want hahaha. I don’t know. We will see. If it is meant to work God will make it work. I am split right down the center with my decision. People tell me to follow my heart… but I really don’t know which side is my heart speaking. I want to be around my family… but I also want to have my own life. I will only be an hour and a half away.. I don’t understand why it is such a big deal!

Hopefully they have an offer for me this week. I am eager to see where I end up.

Love you all