Even when I’m burstin’ into flames I don’t regret the day I left I don’t believe that I was blessed I’m probably lyin’ to myself again..

Well… I did it..

I accepted the job..

I signed the lease today..

I am nervous. So nervous that I feel like I could puke.

I really hope that I have made the right decision here. I have been absent lately because I have so much going on.. With trying to get everything situated for my move. I don’t think I have ever been so stressed out in my entire life. Tons of paperwork and traveling.

And to be honest, through it all I was still trying to patch a friendship up with D… I feel absolutely terrible. I heard through the grapevine that he hasn’t been able to pay rent.. he is in the process of losing his beloved (our beloved) car.. Even after everything he has put me through I still reach out to help him.

He won’t accept my help.

And it keeps getting back to the point of me telling him how much I love him.

So I have finally shut the door.

Completely….

My parents have been a little more understanding though. I don’t really bring anything up and they don’t really insult my decision.

I am going to head to bed early. I just wanted to get on here and provide an update.

I hope everyone is well