Geez where do i begin

i guess this is to keep me level, contemplate and think and be mindful of what is happening and what i’m feeling. well. iof i’m upset i will spam many emails saying it if you block me. i don’t think its excessive. its like 8 emails that are two sentences or just one. he shut off my phone, changed all the shared passwords for shared accounts like amazon, netflix, verizon. oh, i’m going to lala land now. so tired. so i no make sense. anyways i will try to write tomrrow and from now on since i have no therapist. sucks big ass balls.