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oh my goodness it takes 10 minutes to post again. wtf, doesnt matter, this is for me. anhyways. i juast posted alot fo posts to facevook condeming shit happening now and telling the horrors of my life.. 12 yrs of devistating abuse as a child, witnessing it. the experience of it . stranger, neighbor, father.

‘being the oldest, then reliving it as adult with boyfriends. jesus… fucking aye, why are they fucking twins, triplets, just all the same. how do i get to be with someone that is good for me. they are not bad. they all have their own stories on why they are abusive. lhow i get away from it. i am empnateheic. i know they are not bad, but the bad that made them. not their fault.