A Quick Little Plight

Holy crap, it’s midterms.  My 3D class isn’t so much of a problem but I am a little concerned about senior project.  I’m supposed to have half of my animation colored by now and I…definitely don’t!  I can’t come up with a color style that I really like.  I thought I liked my current style but I’m not so sure anymore.  The style I’m doing now takes way too long because I am coloring it in two layers.  I only have four seconds completed but if you count the fact that I did those four seconds twice, I should really have eight seconds done.  I always seem to make things harder on myself than they need to be.  I just have a vision in my head of what it should look like but I can’t match that vision on the computer screen and it is incredibly frustrating.  What’s more frustrating is the fact that I only have five weeks left to finish this thing and each day I’m indecisive and continue to change styles, the more I’m going to get behind and eventually have to sacrifice quality in order to get it finished. 

I’m frazzled.

Plus, in five weeks I’ll be done with my next to last quarter of college and it’s thrilling and scary at the same time.  Starting in March, I’ll only have ten more weeks until I graduate!  No more papers to write, no more homework to do, no more classrooms and annoying students who don’t shower or shut up.  It’s good but in a way it’s also incredibly frightening because this is all I’ve ever known.  I’ve been in school approximately seventeen years now, more than half my life!  What is it going to be like when that is not my life any more?  I’m going to be stepping into a whole new way of being with bills and a job and more responsibility than I’ve ever faced before.

The thought of that leaves me a bit shaken.

Yet, there’s a big part of me that feels like I am ready.  I am ready to have my own place and be independent.  I suppose it doesn’t have to be such a jarring transition as I imagine it to be.  I did gain a bit of independence when I moved to college.  I had to start doing things on my own and taking care of myself instead of allowing my parents to do it for me.  After graduation, I’ll merely be adding new responsibilities to my currently scant list.  And I think that’s O.K. 

I can’t really worry about that right now, anyway.  I have a senior project to finish.  Before I can do that, I have to figure out what colors I want to finish it with!  I thought animating would be the hard part but it was actually pretty easy.  Lines are limited but colors are continuous.  There’s no end to the possibilities when it comes to color…and Photoshop, of course.

My indecisiveness will be the death of me.