A Checklist of Changes

I finally figured out my Kindle.  It seems when you purchase one, you are given access to Sprint’s high speed network.  The Kindle uses Whispernet, which is basically like the internet for your cell phone.  It’s not wireless internet for your computer.  I think I am correct and I think I explained it correctly but I could be wrong ‘cause I basically know nothing about internet signals and the sort.  I just know that it wasn’t working for me and one of the cool things about the Kindle is that you can buy books directly from the Kindle using the Whispernet or you can have the book send wirelessly to your Kindle from your computer.  Pretty fancy stuff.  But it didn’t work at my house and at first I thought I was doing something wrong or had a defective device or even had to pay for the Sprint service.  Ah ha!  That’s the catch.  Not only do you have to shell out a hefty amount for the Kindle but you have to also pay a monthly fee to use the wireless service.  But no!  It’s actually free, which is pretty amazing in this day in age where you have to pay an extra charge for every little thing.  Buy something but the batteries aren’t included.  Have to buy those.  Get a hamburger but the extra packs of ketchup are gonna cost ya.  But anyway, I guess I’m just not in Sprint’s coverage at home.  I busted out that bad boy when I came back to school and turned the Whispernet on and it works fine!  I even downloaded Twilight.  Now I just have to get motivated to read! 

Motivated is the key word.

Sometimes I feel like I need motivation just to get out of bed.  Well, I do, but it’s usually so I can urinate.  I suppose the call of nature isn’t quality motivation.  But it works so I guess it counts for something.

I have so many plans for this quarter but I’ve said that before.  Every year, every quarter I just know things are going to be different.  I’m gonna change things.  And I never do.

So let’s see if this is gonna be another epic fail, shall we?

I did so well last year.  I lost weight and saved money and I was just so organized.  I went shopping every Friday to replenish my groceries and did laundry every Sunday and kept everything washed and clean and I had my Saturday nights with the guys and I exercised and I did homework and I read books and I kept busy and just did well overall.  But, after Christmas break ‘07, I went back to old habits.  Hopefully I can reverse the process…you know, last quarter I kind of sucked at life…but after this Christmas break, I want to come back and get my crap together!

I want to write daily.  I want to practice and polish my skills and really try to get better and better.  And if nothing else, writing really helps me sort things out and it gives me an outlet for all of my very intense feelings. 

I want to exercise more.  Definitely at least three times a week, including Thursdays with the guys at the gym.  I want to go walking in the park and enjoy all the doggies and sexy ladies.  I want to enjoy the fresh air and just being outside because I’m basically a hermitic vampire.  I also brought along some of my Power90 DVDs and I plan on popping them in and shaking my rump.  They definitely worked ‘cause I did the whole program several years ago and lost quite a bit of weight and even developed some muscles in my arms.  And I almost got rid of my moobs.  Hopefully they’ll help out and keep things interesting.  When I have more options for exercise it’ll keep it from getting boring and tedious and lessen the chances of me crapping out. 

I want to read daily.  Read a chapter or two a night.  When I think about that it seems really lame and pointless to only read a measly chapter a night but if I think about it, it’s better than not reading at all!  I can either take a month or so to read a book or think about how it’s a waste of time and end up reading nothing after that month has passed.  Plus, if it’s a good book I’m sure I’ll want to read more than one chapter.

I want to meditate/do yoga.  I’m really starting to realize that I’ve had an amazing life but I have made my life crap.  I am too hard on myself and I worry myself into a frazzle and I take on so much unneeded stress that it’s ridiculous.  I need some way to clear all of that bad energy.  Just like with the reading, if I just meditate for five or ten minutes a day I think it’ll be beneficial.  I can just clear my head and sit down and use a mantra and be quiet for a change.  I am constantly talking to myself and with all of this talking, I can listen to what God or the universe or my surroundings might be trying to tell me.  Maybe I need to stop and listen for a change.

I want to go to church.  I found a nice one through Chasity and we’ve been together here and there but I don’t go as much as I’d like/need to.  I always felt better when I went and I need to start feeling better again ‘cause God knows I just don’t feel good at all anymore.

I want to have a schedule.  Go grocery shopping every Saturday and not spending a lot of money and making it last instead of just eating it all at once and going back and wasting money and calories.  I also wanna take Saturday to do laundry and just chill, since Saturdays are the days when the guys and I get together and watch a movie and eat pizza.  Since we all stop what we are doing to do that, I might as well take that entire day off to do what I need to do, that way the rest of my days are as free as possible so I can work on my senior film!  Good thinking, eh?  I’m trying to be as efficient as possible.

And of course to eat better.  That’s a given. 

I am a little kid that needs structure.  That’s all there is to it.  And when I don’t have it I go of course and usually land in a big batch of muffins.  I’m going to have to become my own parent and get strict with myself because I guess I’m not mature enough to take care of myself without having all of these strict guidelines put into place.  I can’t just take care of something when it’s needed so I have to place my head into a room full of rules to get my stuff together. 

Yep, I’ve got a lot of goals.