I’m actually dying…

I’m sitting here at work, in the hall of names, and I actually feel like I could die from the pain in my ear…it feels like its making the whole right side of my head swell and like someone keeps putting more and more pressure on it…I need to cry because it hurts so badly but I can’t cry because i’m at work and even if I work at one of the most depressing places in the world i’m supposed to be cool, calm and composed…always…so i’m sitting here at work in the hall of names with many people milling around me…just hoping that either the pain will stop or it’ll succeed in killing me…but just soon…please soon…