last day of 2010

I no sooner wrote the title then the power went out. its 6 degrees out side, Denver is having its first snow fall of the year so why not have the power lines go down? fortunately it was only for an hour, not enough to harm anything. Just tweak the day. It was also long enough for me to stumble though the house wondering where I put my candles and that oil lamp (saved back from my Alaskan days) I found one fat candle and lit it. the 18 yr old Himalayan female cat sniffed it , decided it was ok. and walked by it. her fluffy fur immediate puffed out in smoke and singed hair! the order of burned cat hair filled the room. I checked the cat, yep melted hair, but the fire was out. the other cats sniffed the flame but didn’t walk by it! I went back to bed, nothing to do at 5am in the dark, Wendy started up her diesel truck. It is always pulled in at night, as diesel fuel needs to be warm to start. and with power out… so dressed warmly she went to feed the horses. that were heavily blanketed last night. It is amazing to me, the so many horse owners in Colorado leave their horses out in pastures without shelters. despite hail storms that dent cars, freezing below 0 weather, sleeting rain, and over 100 degrees in summer. no protection for the "dumb" animal. cowboy attitude I guess. and bordering if not stepping over the line of cruelty. but the law allows it. Our ponies have a barn, and blankets, and they totally appreciate it. when its cold they willingly stick their noses though the neck hole covering. warm is a universal concept.

but the lights and heat came back on an hour later and here I am writing down my random thoughts

I had wanted to mention how temporary this house seems even after a year and several months. Boxes still accumulate in living room and hall way, in transition between storage, empty and filled. I can’t seem to decide on what colors to paint some walls, or what curtains to hang in my bedroom. things are unfinished. perhaps time will work that out. I thought that by now, a year and a few months after moving in, I would be more settled. but no. daughters have moved in and out. animals have moved in and out, this house remains a transitional one in many aspects. I continue to be undecided on where I will live when I retire at age 66 and half ,IF I can afford to do so. here? or somewhere cheaper, warmer, more out in the country… who knows what the future brings. this is why I dapple in astrology, but I never get any answers. sometimes it best not to know, and the unexpected Good, is appreciated when it happens too. like the kitten that arrived here a few months ago. what energy and joy he has brought into the house!

I don’t have to go to work today, and had planned on cleaning house. I will do that. and play Wow, and consider yet again, rearranging my computer/study room. I’ve been considering it. as I have setting up my second computer that has all my photos on it. it has a bug that crashed it and I can’t get rid of despite wiping it –so can’t go on Internet with it. but works for other stuff. IF I were to connect all the cables, etc. its on my list of things to do. like moving those boxes into the garage, or the shed….

I expect I will also have to go outside sometime today and shovel the 2 or 3 inches of snow off the drive. the HOA rules demand this, or I would just let it melt. I didn’t want a home within a Home Owners Association (HOA) but it was the best of the market and at the end of several months search. but as a Gemini with Uranus close to her Sun, I hate rules. and quietly find ways to break them

I got Wendy a book on tape, about a rescued horse, of course. she listened to it on drive to work, and now I’m listening to it as I drive to work and back. I find that I can listen to things I would not read! but this book makes me smile at times. like when the author said "typical mare mentality: If you can’t bit the one you hate, bite the one next to you". She also makes some comments on life in general, as in "wild horses are more trusting then abused horses" . as the book evolves she relates that she was an abused child an had an abusive marriage. but the horse is helping her to heal. horses do that. If I recall the title correctly the book is "chosen by a horse"

look for it , read or listen to it. its funny and good.

now talking about biting … my daughter in law, who I fondly refer to as THAT woman, sent me a post card picture of the family in front of the Christmas tree. no letter, no HI, doing fine, nothing just the picture or the boys, my son, and her. I appreciate seeing how much the boys have grown, they are as tall as their dad. I resent that my son has not contacted me for about a year, nor let the boys do so. she controls all emails, phones, letters, isolating them with only her views on life. this is what an abusive person does. isolates one from family and friends. I want to throw darts at her picture. And my son is so dumb that he only hears what she says. but dwelling on this is negative and gets me no where.

my son in law and my youngest daughter sent me a calendar of photos of cassidy and tanner, and one of those automated photo things. I just have to figure out how to upload or down load pictures into it! they want me to come visit sometime this winter. and as soon as I can figure out times and money, I’ll do that.

Wendy is still applying for jobs in Arizona, so I know she will land back there eventually. My sister sent me two bottles of Wine , and had one for Christmas, will have the other tonight–cherry wine, yum. and chocolate…

diet tomorrow!