Slipping Through My Fingers
I can’t seem to keep myself from crying. I can’t believe that this weekend I am celebrating Ian’s first birthday, and come Monday he will actually be a year old.
How does a year pass so quickly!? It makes me sad. I feel like I am being cheated on my own life. How does it happen? A year before children felt like forever, and now it just fades so quickly.
I love my son. So much. God could not have given me anything more perfect in him. I just want it to last forever.
It seems like just yesterday my water broke, and then I reached out and felt his head as I was pushing, and then he was taken from me and put in the NICU, and then brought to me and all was perfect.
I’m so proud of him. And of our relationship. Salem never loved me the way he does, and there is something irreplacable about someone needing and loving you that much.
I’m afraid of the future and the things he will face. I want him to forever be healthy and safe. It pains me that I can’t promise that to him forever.
Monday is coming and I can’t stop it. Just like I can’t stop from loving him.
That’s why God gave us tear ducts….*HUGS* Hope those temps aren’t as bad as they predicted!
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It is such a happy moment to me. With Samara I felt it slipping, with Sabastian I am excited to see him grow so much. I have felt both sides of this. Cry mama if you need to, and then when the party comes, and you see his happy face smile at the love you have, the boy you have and all he has acomplished this year!
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celebrating his life and his growing is a beautiful thing!
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How amazing that it’s been a year! He’s such a beautiful baby.
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Hope the party is a blast!
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RYN: We’ve only got the first two of them, but if they knew there were more they’d be hounding us for them…lol
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I had those same feelings so many times with all 4 of my kids. So many memories. I hope you all had a great time with his party.
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Just thinking of you this morning…hope all is well. *HUG*
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They really do grow wayyyyy too fast. I already miss my itty bitty newborn and she is only 12 weeks. It seriously has just flown by, wish time would slow down a little. On the bright side I’m looking forward to all her milestones and showing her the world.
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