Pssssh!

 My Mother’s Day was nice, and the wedding was, well a wedding, but I will write about that later, that is if I get to it. 

Saturday (day of the wedding) was the first bad day I had in almost 2 weeks. And today was not good either. I felt so down and had no real explanation other than that was how I woke up. Ian was incredibly cranky and that just did not help. And now, I just want to wallow away and hide. 

For the last 3 days, Ian’s urine has smelled particularly strong and foul. The first time I noticed it was during the night, and I just assumed that his diaper was very full. He was also sweating so bad that every time I moved him to readjust or nurse him, the sheet below him was saturated. I chalked it up to his cold and figured his fever had come back. In the morning he had no fever so I was not worried and through the day it was fine as well. But Saturday night when we got home from the wedding and I changed his diaper, I noticed the smell again, and still through the whole night. It was the same last night as well, and the sweating is still the same. It’s mostly while he’s sleeping, but during the day when we are all warm, it seems like he is sweating more than usual. 

Today he fell asleep on my lap and when I adjusted him to move him into his crib, I noticed the smell again. I thought maybe the cat sprayed in our room, or maybe even somehow the dog or cat went in our room without us knowing it and maybe he crawled in it. I smelled his hands and shirt, before pulling his diaper aside and being overwhelmed by the smell. I called Scott and asked him if he thought we should be concerned so he googled some stuff and decided that we should call the doctor. We both are concerned that it has something to do with his kidney. So when I called and talked with the doctor and she knew it was Ian, she wanted me to come in as soon as we could to test his urine. 

We got there and the nurse came in attached a plastic bag around his penis to collect the urine and take his vitals. She confirmed no fever and asked me to nurse him to try and encourage him to go. Twenty minutes later the doctor came in checked on him and he hadn’t gone yet. I nursed him again and we gave him a half a cup of water and still nothing. An hour after the doctors first check and we were ready to give up, because they were closed, and he finally went. I never wanted him to pee so badly. I was so stressed we would have to leave and not know anything. So they tested his urine and there is 2 types of bacteria causing an infection. She wrote us a prescription for antibiotics that I started him on tonight, but we won’t know what or where the infection is until tomorrow. 

The thing is, that she is concerned it is his kidney, mostly because of how long it took him to pee. Because he is an infant, as soon as urine enters the bladder, it should just come out. This makes us really paranoid. Mostly me. We just got good news! I don’t want bad news. I have to collect more urine tomorrow morning and take it to the lab so they can determine the source. She is also ordering an ultrasound so we can check on the kidney. 

I am devestated. I am not ready for this. Please pray for him, and me so I can be strong for him.