After Thoughts

 I need to update, badly. I however have no time to do so, and feel little motivation to share what has been going on because there hasn’t been a whole lot of good, and the bad has been really bad. How about a list?

1. I am currently desperately in love with my husband and in desperate need of him. How did I get in this way? We got into a major heart wrenching fight and it nearly destroyed me. In the hindsight, there was tremendous break through on both ends and I am addicted to him now. I think he is addicted to me. In the middle of the storm, I started to write an entry and didn’t get to finish it. I’m glad I didn’t because it’s over with and I am happier with no real proof it ever happened. 

2. Said fight caused a huge fight between my dad and Scott. I never thought it would pass. This also caused feuding between my dad and I, and him and his girlfriend because she was on our side. I’m down about 4 pounds because I didn’t eat for 3 days from all the fighting and have yet to get my appetite back. I guess something good came of it. But God is good and everything has been worked out, and we might possibly see them tomorrow. 

3. Tomorrow we are finally having a real beach day. We are going to San Onofre State Beach which is a really far drive, but it is my favorite beach. I have such fond memories of my adventures with Scott before he was my husband and so it is perfect that we are going there at the timing we are. The kids have never been so it’ll be a good picture day.

4. Fourth of July was so much fun. I was extremely pleased that Ian showed zero fear of the fireworks and expressed pure frustration between the firework lightings. I have pictures, but no time at the moment to post them. 

5. We are not moving on August 1st. Scott had a series of interviews with a company, and we thought he was going to be getting the job, and we would have wanted to move down where the job was after so many months, and we didn’t want to move twice. In the middle of the fighting Scott received an email letting him know he was not chosen for the position. That did not help matters. 

6. Yesterday he had a phone interview with another company, and he nailed that. Less than an hour later, he was called for his second interview which is Monday morning at 9. Please pray that goes well. It’s time for a change. It’s time for him to do something better. He is so much better suited for this job, than the last one he was interviewing for, and that is why he did so good with the phone interview. An old coworker referred him because he thinks he is perfect for the job. I am excited at the prospect of Scott working with him because he is a Christian and was there encouraging Scott when he was still a baby in his faith and I would love for Scott to have him back in his daily life again. Scott too. =o)

7. I am getting a long better with my mom. Mostly because she is not here. She is on vacation with my grandma and won’t be back until the beginning of August. The house has been pretty peaceful lately. 

8. My last entry was a little confusing and I want everyone to know that it was aimed and not just one person, but many people in my life. It’s a boiling of things that I have been frustrated with for quite some time, but I don’t necessarily feel like they are worth the confrontation of brining them up. Perfectly, things were addressed in Scott and I’s fight and so that helps a ton. 

9. Ian’s ultrasound of his kidney is next week on the 17th. I am a little nervous, so I am actually happy Scott didn’t get that job or else I would have to go alone. 

10. Salem is taking swim lessons. This was her first week, and she has one more to go. There is one more session I could register her for before the summer is over, but I don’t think we will be doing it. I told her we could dye her hair tips purple while school is still out, but I haven’t done it because I didn’t want the chlorine in the water rinsing it out for her. 

11. I will be changing my hair at the same time. New cut, and new color. A drastic color because I have always wanted to, and I feel drastic right now. Yellow. Not blonde. Yellow. Hard to explain without pictures, but it will be cute and a little punk rock, just like I like. I am anxious for it. 

So I guess not everything is bad, or necessarily good. Just normal? I promise to update on Monday. With that being said, have an awesome weekend!