10/23/2012
I just got into a screaming match with my mom over the electricity bill and I am reminded why we have to move. When I started to lose my mind and break down my brother tried to come to my rescue. She lashed out at him. Threatening him that he will have no where to live when it is time to move.
I want a loving mother, a nurturing one who cares more about my head and heart than her bottom line. The kind like my friends have. The one that I promise I will be to my kids.
I sometimes wonder why she even loves me at all, if she does. We are all just an obligation to her.
And inside I hate myself because I lost it and my babies heard it.
It takes away any of the positive that there was.
You know what you should take from this? Pride that you’re a better mother than that.
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sorry for the clash. no fun, but at least you don’t have to wonder about your decision to move. love the pics! (the hair, the ink, the color and the kids!). ryn. no it’s not wrong. things are going pretty good. trying to focus and move forward. hoping closure helps me with that, though it might seem weird.
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You are that mother to your kids….*HUGS* So sorry that yours’ isn’t being the same… 🙁
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RYN: cheek biting is a form of the lip/skin picking disorder I listed too. If you figure out how to stop, please let me know!
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You are a loving mother to your kids. I’m sorry your mom isn’t that way.
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