pain

It has been 5 and a half days since the surgery and I am in more pain than I can stand. I have such a low pain threshold and the meds just aren’t cutting it.

Everytime I get up and go to the bathroom, by the time I get back to the chair I am almost in tears and if I don’t have ice right away I wanna die.

I wish I didn’t get the surgery. I should have just done the physical therapy and then dealt with the problem for the rest of my life.

I am going insane. I am watching more TV than anyone rightfully should. I also am not drinking enough b/c I don’t want to get up and pee. This is so horrible.

I knew it was going to be bad, but I didn’t think it was going to be this bad. I just want to feel better. I want to be able to go to the bathroom without help. I want to get my own food. I want to take a shower for goodness sake. This BLOWS!

I know that with the surgery the problem will be fixed and now I won’t have to worry about my knee dislocating. I know that i had literally had my bone moved and screwed into. I know that my bone was scraped to remove extra cartilidge. I know that it is going to take time to heal, but I am impatient and want to feel better now.

I want to go back to my Internship. I loved it. I had so much fun stuff lined up and now I am just sitting on my ass with pain up the wazoo.

Ugh.

All I want it Josh, and he is 200 miles away. Why can’t we just be together in the same city for a summer? I miss him so much too. I just want to be with him.

Sorry for my whining. I just need to put it somewhere.

I guess its time for more pain meds and the another crappy nights sleep.

 

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June 24, 2008

I knwo this is a total opposite body part but that’s a reason why I won’t have my wisdom teeth removed. I’ll be out of commission for awhile and I can’t have that. Feel better!

June 24, 2008

Oh, it’s okay to whine. Trust me, I’m sure it’s been hard, but try to think of when you next get to see him. Or the last time you saw him and what you did. Do you have Skype? It’s a software program where you can talk all you want. If you have cameras for your comp then you guys could talk via internet maybe. Skype is free by the way and you can talk forever.

June 24, 2008

I wish there was something more I could suggest but I don’t have much. I hope you get well soon!

June 25, 2008

I’m sorry you are in so much pain. It will get better soon. ((HUGS))

June 25, 2008

=( how long did they say that pain would last? that sounds awful. i hope you start to feel better soon!