it’s been awhile….

I was poking through some old entries.  Man, was I fucked up.  I’m so numb now… I don’t *feel* everything like I used to.  I understand the trade-off there, and I understand that it’s necessary.  But I miss the ups… and the downs, really.  I miss that total zen-like "wow" I used to feel.

I miss Morgan.  I think that’s really it.  I miss her.  I want her to hold me and I just want to cry.  I haven’t cried in a long time.