Vacation 2.0

I’m on vacation right now.

It’s the first time I’ve been on vacation since August of 2016. It’s hard to believe that it’s been that long since I’ve seen my sister. It’s hard to believe that it’s been that long since I’ve seen London.

I’ve found small comforts in life to leave me feeling connected. I bought a tapestry of London to cover the entirety of a wall in my room. It’s a lot more blue than I remember London, but when I look at it from a distance, I sometimes feel like I’m still there. I can see Parliament and the London Eye and I remember crossing that bridge above the Thames River and staring off into the distance in the middle of the overflowing traffic, and I remember my sister. I think of her all the time. I wonder how she’s doing, and I wonder what life would be like if I had just stayed like she said I could.

I think about that a lot.

It’s painful to be so far away sometimes, but there’s a lot I’ve worked on a lot I’ve figured out since I’ve come back to California. There’s days when I wonder if she’d recognize me. I look so different now. Funny how time and a haircut can change us so quickly.

I’m on vacation right now. This time though, I’ll be staying in California trying to fuse broken connections to what was once my everyday life.