Office Visits

I went to my most recent checkup today, and I asked my doctor if I could go up to a higher dosage on my medication.

He said he didn’t think it was a good day.

I tried to explain that I was still having a lot of lows, but they weren’t as intense. At my best, I felt like I was doing just okay.

He tried to explain that in term of stability and mood swings, doing okay with less severe ups and down was great.

When I think about it that way, I find it all rather bleak and depressing. That at my best, I would only ever be just okay.