Inhibititions

I’m thinking that I may be setting myself up.
I jump up, hoping he’s there and when he’s not I feel a little disappointment.
Just a little.
But even though it is next to nothing because I am aware he can potential kill me
all over again
I am aware of how badly it can hurt and the tears I will cry because of him and his decisions.
I don’t know if I should tell him to be careful
because he has my heart regardless of what either of us wants
or whether I should wait for proof that he’s an ass before I chastise him
and then try to pry my heart away.
I guess I’m just scared.
Scared that he will not tell me when another enters.
Scared he will let this drag on like before
and he will destroy me, piece by piece, just like
before.