Too Slow

Last night I ordered some proactive. If your gonna buy it buy it from QVC. So much cheaper. Still waiting for it and my dress and shoes to get here. Tomorrow I think I’m dragging Chris down to JCPenney, or Dillards to get him his wedding suit. I talked to Cari last night, and I demanded her to book her flight today. So hopefully she won’t forget and she’ll get the tickets while they are cheap. She’s gonna buy a light pruple dress to match some of the purple in my dress. I told her if she wanted to get her nails done with us she would have to pay for them, but we would buy her wedding dinner, since she is coming out and missing Mother’s Day for it. I love my Cari! Still not sure about Vic. I hope he comes but he’ll probabley flake out. I hope he doesn’t because it would mean a lot to Chris to have him there. If he does flake out, I dont know. I’m trying to get his cousin Jason to come down from Indiana but he just moved and has little money. No car, no license. I dont really care if anyone comes, its about us and God. But it’s an important day and we want the people who are important to us to be there. I talked to Chris’s friend Danielle last night on AIM. She’s a super kick butt chick. We’ve never met, but she’s so sweet. I can’t wait to meet her. Cari wants me to have a bouquet so maybe I’ll just go to Wal-mart and get three or four white or pink roses single, and make a bouquet myself. I’m great at arranging flowers. I was really thinknig how peaceful it was and was thinking I should look into getting a job as a florist. I have no clue how you would go about getting a job like that. Chris is planning on looking into becoming an oil changing technician. I love planning. I’m weird. Why does everything seem to be going so slow now that we’ve set the date, and its only a month away? I want it to hurry up and get here. I’m so excited and I can’t wait.

I just realized today, its been one month since John died. I proababley shouldnt re read old entries about him but I think I will. It’s so weird to understand this. When people say life doesn’t end because you die, they are right. Even though you aren’t here anymore, people’s lives still go on, and plans are made. One month. Such A little time, but so long ago.