Tell Us How You Really Feel, Heather

My work woes have gotten better. My GM did change my availability to daytime only like I asked. Sweet. I like it better anyway, because now I work, come home, and have more time in the day to do things.  Today is supposed to be busy. Leigh and I are taking her kids to Dunbar cave, to take some fall pictures. If anyone has any advice for me, before this afternoon, that would be great. The leaves have changed beautifully and the sun is shining today, so it’s a perfect day. Later if there is time, Beth and I might be going to a pumpkin patch provided she calls. Halloween is my favorite holiday, but with Chris not working I don’t want to take monay out of savings for decorations and candy. This year I think we are sitting it out. I’d rather spend money on Christmas gifts.

Vince is really pissing me off lately. He is being absolutely retarded. I realize the baby is due at anytime, and his stress is high, but he is starting to push away Sheena. Mandy says if Vince moves back to California she won’t charge him child support, but she’s just manipulating him. He knows that’s what she does, but he’s still considering it. Just to save 200 bucks a month. But he’ll lose Sheena, beause she wouldn’t be able to take Tyler with her. But she told him if he wants to go, she wants him to be happy. She’s trying to be unselfish, and he looks at it as she wants to break up. That’s not true at all. He needs to start treating her better. I’ve never seen him not treat women good, but he’s been so possesive and jealous. Sheena is an awesome person, and I understand why she wouldn’t want to leave her son here, or seperate him from his daddy. Even though his daddy is a total jerk, he’s 4 and loves him. I also understand Vince’s desire to be with his child. Mandy has fucked his life to all hell. Tyler is another thing. Vince hates him. A little child. Just turned 4. He doesn’t speak much, at least that makes sense, and he’s behind for his age. But his dad’s family is Sheena’s only babysitter, and they don’t speak english. So it’s Sheena trying to teach him by hisself. Vince constantly calls him stupid, and says he hates him, and Sheena is getting really pissed off. Vince wants everything to be perfect. He really believes he can achieve the white house, picket fence, family four, pleeasent view type of life. Any bump in the road sets him off that path. He is very judgemental of other people, but he can do no wrong. He’s two different people when he’s in a relationship and when he’s not. More than anything I want both of them to be happy. I love Tyler, I think he’s the sweetest, cutest angel there is. Sure he acts up sometimes, he’s a 4 year old, and he has the attention span of a sheep. I wonder sometimes if it’s because Tyler isn’t white. He’s part korean, part black, and part white. I know Vince isn’t racist but I still wonder if it’s not because he’s not white. Tyler likes Vince too. He will lose Sheena if he doesn’t stop. Seriously, don’t tell your girlfriend that you hate her kid, and you think he’s stupid.

Tonight I’m supposedto go to Jodi’s divorce party. I’ll probably show for appearences, but I’ll likely leave early.

I’m very happy with our friend choices, Leigh being one of them. It’s amazing how much we are alike. I trust her completely with things I say, and I hope the same is returned.

A girl at work is a liar. I’m about to call her on it too. She’s got a web of lies that are just spinning. Her boyfriend came back from Iraq, and she thought she was pregnant, after like a week. Well she took a test, got a negative, and left for two weeks for NY. When she came back she said she was pregnant, and she also had a gaint tweeker sore on her face. Well yesterday she tells me that she’s getting an abortion because she’s having a tubal pregnancy. *blink* I said you don’t geet an abortion for a tubal pregnancy, the inject you with a medicine that can disolve the fetus back into the bloodstream, or tubal removal. Then she told me she was only 4 weeks, which is impossible by her own freaking timeline. Meaning her HPT picked up her pregnancy at a mere week before conception. Wow. I wish mine was that good. Then she told me she has pain in her side for it already, and I said well most ectopic pregnancies aren’t even caught until 8 weeks, and she didn’t have an answer for that one. She said she has narrow tubes, but she’s also said how fertile she is. Well which is it. So I’m going to keep prodding and poking holes into her story, and see if she caves in. She’s told serveral people different stories about why she’s ending the "pregnancy". I might not have had a baby, but damn it I know almost everything about pregnancy. I think it’s a cruel joke to play. She says she’s going back to the doctor on Friday after work, took saturday off, and should be able to return to work on Sunday. Not for anyone I know who’s had a tubal pregnancy. The emotional pain alone, not to mention it’s freaking surgery! If she is getting an abortion the least she could do is be honest. If she is even pregnant. I will trap her in a lie. In front of everyone.

If you read all of this and bother to note, thanks.