Sleep Dreams

If I thought I could get pregnant, I would think I am. The extreme fatique, the bizarre forgetfulness, the constant dry mouth this past week is making me cranky. I think it’s just PMS though. I’ve been feeling lower back cramps on and off in the past week too. I tell you though I’ve never taken so many naps in one week. I wake up at 7am every morning, get a good 6-8 hours deep sleep. But by 12 in the afternoon I’m usually laying down to nap. And everytime I close my eyes, I see Chris rubbing my belly, and I fall alseep dreaming of babies. Most mornings I can’t remember the dream itsself, but some times I have those dreams that are so real and vivid you can actually feel emotion in your sleep. I’m so happy, and they I wake up and faced with reality that we are childless, but not by choice. I haven’t had one of those in a long time thank God. I use my humor as a block on the pain. It hurts, but I’m working on it, which lessens the pain. We just want a child.

I need sleep, I’m exhausted. I worked the evening shift tonight though, so even though by 12p.m. I’m begging for sleep, no naps or I won’t wake up for hours.