Hot Minute

I guess it’s been a hot minute since I’ve written. You can’t write about what hasn’t been happening. I think Chris is going through a bit of a rebelious stage though, because he’s actually been kind of mean to me lately. I think he’s stressed out, and taking it out on everyone around him.

I’m having weird dreams about being pregnant, like it’s a burden. I dream about the old days, friends I used to know, and they’ve been all acomplished and sucessful, and then there’s me, pregnant. I wake up feeling bad about myself, even though for me this is my greatest acompishment. I guess I’m missing the old days more than ever, and I would love to take a trip home.I just can’t afford to do that right now. It wouldn’t be any fun without Chris there anyway. Really I would love to fly out there, get a nice hotel, visit a few friends, spend a quiet day at the beach, and just soak it up. Just one last time, for childhood. My childhood.

It’s so weird how my generation has kids now, and even though we are still young, I feel this generation has gotten so old. you go from gossiping in the high school bathroom and hushed whispers in the halls about girls getting knocked up, and just 5 or 6 years more, we smile sweetly and sincerely and are actually dreaming of our own families when someone tells you they are having a baby.

I’ve been thinking about a lot of little things lately, nothing that really seems important enough to remember. I’m counting down the days until we can see our baby on the u/s and even though we won’t be able to see features, I just want to see bumblebee. I’m not taking this for granted, some women never get to make it that far. My heart goes out to them.

BNL*Grl

March 31, 2007

I can’t believe that some of my friends, the same age as me, are doctors and lawyers now. It just seems so “grown up” and I still feel like a kid most of the time!

sweetest downfall.

I often wonder what it would have been like to take the other path. You know, career first and such. I think it’s absolutely normal to wonder.

*RYN* Nah, I can’t actually get mad at him, LOL 🙂 Dan gets frustrated with him way more easily than I do. I was annoyed at having to clean up the garbage, but I was more annoyed at our roomate for leaving it out in the first place!

TickledPeenk

It’s funny how things change…

loving-words

Being pregnant makes one feel so sedimental. I remember remincing a lot and feeling a sort of sadness, kind of what your dreams are about. Then I had charles, and I realized that my childhood is what I want for my little one and as the mom, I can make it really special. Good luck with the ultra-sound:)

seabee

Its so weird how everyone yearns to go back to the place of their childhood.

ALIZA

Wow its crazy to think about…I wonder is it like this for everyone? I know this girl who just had a baby and now her life seems empty, like something is missing. I hope that he gets in a better mood and that the both of you can embrace this pregnancy. It’s a beautiful thing and things will work out in the end. Just keep your faith up…I cant wait to see more belly pics:)

Dazed Dahlia

Being a mom is the most important job that you will EVER have so don’t feel bad. You are contributing way more to society with beautiful, well-rounded, successful children! I understand what you are saying though. I was married and ttc at 18. I didn’t have my first child until I was almost 23 but it wasn’t for lack of trying. A mom is the ONLY thing I ever really wanted to be. I wouldn’t change a thing. I’ve added you to my favs

Ahhh…the pregnancy retrospective. I did that, too, only I was thinking about my life, and the things that I’ve done…not accomplishments, but experiences I’ve had or people I’ve met. I miss who I used to be (how selfish of me) and I was sad for a long time. I used to be fun and interesting but now I’m just…a mommy. now..the great thing is that I’m past that stage ( it IS a stage). I love my

..family and I love my life, such as it is. My doc actually said the other day to me, ‘ I wish more parents like you. You sound like you really enjoy this. ” WHO WOULDN’T enjoy being a mom??? She said it seems like I take more pleasure in it than she’s used to. Gads… You were who you were, and you are who you are. They aren’t the same thing, right? It’s evolution. 🙂

Lil Shawty

April 2, 2007

Seeing your baby for the first time is AMAZING. I remember seeing my sweet baby girl for the first time. Chad said, “It looks like a peanut! How cute!” I said, “Oh my goodness. That’s the most beautiful baby EVER!” 🙂

Quixotic

RYN: ROFL dont let him hear you say that. He’s ten, and he’s a man dammit, and if you dont believe him he would probably be more than happy to prove it to you ROFL I have a picture of when he was a baby. He was born 18 inches tall. Thats barely more than a foot.

RYN: I completely agree. *straight face….then giggle*

SeekingJoella

It’s amazing how much a few years can change. Hopefully Chris gets over his male PMS soon..lol And I have no doubt that you are absolutely beautiful right now!!

RYN: That’s a REALLY good idea. I may just have to work on that tomorrow. 🙂