Feeling Hopeless

Right now we are all feeling very hopeless and helpless. Jess got his bone test results. He has bone cancer. 100% in his body. I was praying for something better, something treatable. I could blaim God. In fact I wont lie and say I havent thought of that at first. But really, its not God’s fault. Bad things happen to good people. Its a test for us all. Blaiming someone for something that isnt preventable doesnt help anyone, it only feeds hate. Chris cried. He doesnt want to lose his dad. I know how he feels.Jess is taking the news better than all of us. The next step is to call an oncologist tommorrow morning and get an appointment. Estimated time frame of life and prehaps if it might be slowed down any. Cindy, Chris’s sister-in-law, is a nurse in town and her boss knows all of the best doctors around. Her boss is one of the best doctors as well. I dont know what to do or say. Nothing will make this better. How did this happen?

**Lady C**

January 3, 2005

You’ll definately be in my prayers.

*whimsical+love*

I’m really sorry. I’m thinking about you guys. Much <3,

Just Kim

January 4, 2005

RYN: Right now we are looking at anywhere in OR that trav can work at. Ultimitly I will be a SAHM so my work isnt too imp. We also dont want to live “in” the city, somewhere on the outskirts.

Oh and Ill kick your a$$ if you get preggo before me!!!

Trimaran

January 9, 2005

i am so sorry to hear this.. my brother was diagnosed with bone cancer this summer. it is not a death sentence.. hang in there, keep fighting. i will be thinking of you.