Ashes To Ashes, Dust To Dust

John passed away today. Im not clear if they pulled the plug or if he went on his own. I dont have all the details yet and so far there are no arrangements. Thank you everyone for your thoughts and prayers.

Okay more news. They pulled the plugs. He had bleeding in his stomach and was then given no hope of survival, either way. He died peacefully within two minutes of being removed for the machines. He died without the tubes and machines, with family around him. My family all talked with Carol and they all agreed that he wouldnt want a life of nothing. He’s in a better place now. John didnt die today, he was born an angel. The funeral will be within two weeks, so I won’t be writing for a week, unless I find time to go on the net, which I might just to talk with Chris from time to time. I cant sleep right now, I’m upset and saddened. Thanks you so much again for all your prayers. They really worked, because now he is better in Heaven. Though we will miss him here on Earth, someone can not truly die, if they live within your heart. I wanna take a moment and say a silent prayer for my family and for Carol and their two boys, to pray that they will be able to be strong.

I wasnt sure when the funeral would be so I went shopping in case it was next week. It could be, no date set yet, but I’ll be sure to write about how beautifully his life is remembered. I decided against wearing a dress, although its a formal occassion I hate dresses, and John would want everyone to be comfortable. I decided on wearing my pinstriped dark navy blue slacks, with a black light knit zip up long sleeved sweater/shirt. I bought a couple pairs of pants while I was at walmart because I needed them. Chino’s one black and one khaki. I plan to return in a week and get some more pants and some shirts, that I desperately need. I guess I sound selfish at this time, but everyone deals with things differently. I like to make jokes rather than cry because I dont wanna deal with the pain. My grandpa died when I was nine, and I remember missing him so much. I can still remember his scent and the stories he told, his leathery skin. He also had a few strokes. That however was caused by smoking, something im determined to quit by my 21st birthday. Thank you all again so much. You have know idea how much your thoughts and prayers meant to me. I love you all.

I close my eyes, Only for a moment, And the moment’s gone ,All my dreams, Pass before my eyes a curiosity, Dust in the wind, All we are is dust in the wind.

Same old song, Just a drop of water, In an endless sea, All we do, Crumbles to the ground, Though we refuse to see, Dust in the wind, All we are is dust in the wind

Now, don’t hang on, Nothing last forever, But the earth and sky, It slips away, And all your money Dont another minute buy

Dust in the wind, All we are is dust in the wind, Dust in the wind, Everthing is dust in the wind, Dust in the wind, Everything is dust in the wind.