A conversation i thought i’d never have…

i couldn’t get on OD last night when i wrote this because all ya’ll were already on and overerloading the servers!! 

Soooo…here’s last night’s (or, technically,Thurs night’s) entry…

I just got off the phone with Kim…my step-daughter that i haven’t talked to in over three years. Ant had told me Tues night that she actually said my name…and wanted him to talk to me, to see what i knew about j’s medical condition because she wasn’t sure if he was keeping things from her and she wants to know what’s going on.

She’s a lab tech, cancer paranoid (if there’s such a thing).  She was living with just her Mom when at 11 years old, her mother was diagnosed with melenoma.  It took her away less than nine months later.  And it runs on both sides of Kim’s family.

So…tonight i called. I really didn’t know what to say…only that it was past time for us to talk. We have love and concerns for the same people–j and her awesome kids, Bailey and Chant.

She admitted  that the reason she got so angry over me seeing Bailey and Chant is because she knew that was the best way to hurt me.

Bingo.

Even tho she knew it wasn’t right. She even told me she didn’t blame me for taking the opportunities i’ve had to see the kids.

We talked and cried for an hour.

I told her i was sorry for anything that i didn’t handle well during j and i’s divorce, but i think she understood how difficult it is right now but that i never had a clue that he wanted to hurt himself. And reassured her that i’d do whatever i could during his illness now.

Before we said good-bye, she told me she loved me.

I never expected to hear them from her again.

Those were the sweetest words i’ve ever heard….