Way Too Much Weed

I figured something out with Brian today. I’m not in love with Mike. I just really love the way he treats me and respects me. I mean I know that in his own way Manny respects me. But he had this annoying habit of telling me how I felt or assuming that he knew how I felt. And sometimes he was right but other times he wasn’t. And even when he was right, there were reasons why I didn’t tell him everything or how I felt. I know that as we both grew up and know he’s a lot better about that whole thing but Mike has never done that to me at all yet. And Heather did it to me constantly. She told me how I felt and why I felt it. And now I realize how frustrating that is. Mike has just been completely honest with me this whole time. And all he’s asked of me is that I be honest with him. And even when I think I’m complicating things and trying to work things out with him, he tells me I’m not. After how many years of hearing how screwed up I treated Manny, its nice to know I’m no longer the huge bitch that he makes me out to be. I guess its just nice to be appreciated and not blamed for every argument. Granted, Mike and I haven’t had an argument, but you get the idea. He’s just treating me better. It may also be because I’m treating him better than Manny, but I was dealing with so much crap when Manny and I were trying to have a relationship. And I am now too, but I’m feeling more adjusted and I’m getting treatment for something I didn’t even know I had back then.

Anyways, between the horrible play at the junior high, Brian making me crack up, Kimmy and John, the party, Todd getting way too high and paranoid, the night with Mike, the phone call with him and everything else I had to do over the weekend, it was a pretty cool weekend. I’m glad people are finally home from school and I can hang out and talk to them all. And I’m really tired now, so I’m off to bed.