Vespa dreams

My car is making all sorts of funny noises.  Not comforting at all.   I did figure out that the noise is NOT coming from the engine.  WOOT!  But I think its coming from the tire or the brakes or something rubbing against something while I’m moving.  FAIL.  I can just hear the cost ringing up higher and higher in my head.

Also, I called after nearly every single resume and application I filled out while my mother was here and some more that I did after she was gone.  I say nearly because two letters came back as undeliverable.  But those that I did talk to where "What a great application/resume/letter/person!  But we have nothing for you.  Sorry!"  Its hard not to feel incredibly discouraged when that happens.

I’ve been pinching pennies even harder these past two weeks.  I’m proud of myself, but I feel that its not quite enough yet.  Well, I know its not enough yet.  I’ve crunched my numbers and I can’t save enough money a week to be able to afford my life.  But at least I feel like I have a better handle on my expenses and lack of income.

My cousin is here in town, getting ready for college to start.  She’s a freshmen trying out for the volleyball team, and needed to be here almost two weeks before classes started for training and tryouts.  She’s fairly certain she’ll make the JV team, and I’m excited for her.  I saw her and her mom when she got dropped off, and then tonight she and I went out for dinner (on my mother) and chilled for a bit.  She’s so awesome.  We’re a few months shy of being ten years apart in age, but she’s such an amazing and wonderful young woman.  I’m especially excited to have real family who gives a damn about me in town.  The only problem is that it is expensive for me to drive all the way down to the college to see her, and being a freshman, she doesn’t have a car on campus.

Now you’ve got to understand that by "all the way" I mean ten miles each direction.  Which really shouldn’t seem like a lot, except to my car and my wallet, it can feel like ten hours on a Vespa.  I want one of those SOOO BAD!  Even if I can only use it a quarter of the year because Michigan weather sucks.  It would be perfect for me to get from point A to point B without a huge expense.  My mom doesn’t quite seem to understand that spending an entire day driving all over the city applying to any and every place of employment costs me gads of money.  Money that I really don’t have at the moment.  Money that I’m trying to save and spend more wisely.  I wouldn’t mind driving all over creation if I didn’t need to worry about my car or wallet breaking into a million pieces!

Anyways – I spent some time on craigslist tonight, figuring they were actually LOOKING for people, not just random places, and sent out some more letters and resumes.  We’ll see if anything comes of it.  I really want some more income.  I want to learn how to be more financially responsible and fiscally intelligent.  But right now, all I keep landing on is that I spend WAY more than I make.  And my parents have decided they are going to stop helping me out come September 2.  So I just might be homeless and helpless in October.  Great.  Wasn’t I in this position last year already?

At least I have family in town again.