Too much…

So of the things I dislike about college, and being an oboe performance major is the lack of down time I get.  Though I hated it, I’m used to getting up at 7am, going to work all day and working hard, getting home at 5 or even 6 and having the evening to myself.  I could cook, clean, do things I actually enjoyed.  But my college life is jam packed and I feel like I rarely have time to breath.  I’ve gotten a lot better at time management but I still have no way to fit everything I need to do into one day.  For example, take today’s schedule – a relatively slow day.  Things are broken into hour slots, which usually flux a little.  Some things take more, but some less.  It generally works out. Sometimes.

I wake up around 7am.  I’m not a morning person, so there is some time between the alarm and the actual out of bedness.  On my schedule it says Breakfast, but to me that includes getting dressed, hair, teeth, coffee, food, contacts.  Morning type stuff.  And shower usually every other day.  Then I check emails, send out stuff, check bills, balance checkbook, double check my calendary, little chores.  At 9:30 I had physical therapy, so I studied until I left for that.  It went longer than I thought, so rather than practicing, I ran to the bank and grocery store.  Home about noon.  Class from 12:30 to 2pm.  Then studying.  Then devotions.  Then history class.  I’m doing my OD post now obviously, cause I don’t want to make reeds, but thats what I’m supposed to be doing.  Then practice, dinner, cleaning, studying history, studying English, studying history, studying english and bed.  I didn’t do two practices, as I’m supposed to.  I didn’t practice piano, work on church prep, work on grad application, clean my room, do laundry, read articles for oboe lessons, or call my grandmothers.  Granted I don’t have to do all those things everyday.  But those were all the things that really should have been done today.  That doesn’t include hanging out with my roommate, playing WoW, reading and noting all the diaries I want to on here, watching TV and just relaxing….

I’m not really complaining.  I know this is college and its busy.  But aren’t you supposed to enjoy college, at least somewhat?  Even high school wasn’t this bad.  I had downtime, time to relax, to breathe.  No wonder I feel like randomly bursting into tears for no good reason.  Okay, I’m going to get some food instead of practicing cause I’m starving.  I’ll practice after I eat.  Hopefully…

I was talking to a friend in the grocery store for a few minutes today.  He’s a vocal major, the ONE at the school that I actually like.  He’s married and got the cutest little boy.  He mentioned he hasn’t seen me in the music building lately and I said I’ve been keeping my head down, out of drama.  He said he understood.  The topic switched to how he misses his kid.  He’s performing in the opera this weekend, so he’s had rehearsals nearly every night for the past month.  He’s got tons of stuff to do, and he feels like he never sees his family.  He’s trying to decide what to do after graduation.  If he goes into performing, he’ll be traveling, but he doesn’t know if he really wants to teach and he’s not sure grad school is going to be any kinder on his time.  He did make me realize I’m glad I don’t have a family or even a boyfriend to add into that schedule.  Because I would be like him.  I would want to spend time with my family and feel badly when I couldn’t.

Another part of this rant is that my roommate spends more than a few hours a day playing WoW.  I know her thumb is injured and she has trouble practicing.  But still, she’s got plenty of other things she’s got to do.  How do I know?  She complains about them!  But I leave to go to class and she’s playing WoW.  I come home and she’s still playing.  She goes to bed around 9pm and gets a good 9-10 hours of sleep.  I’m lucky to 5 hours.  I’m just sick of her complaining.  Maybe other majors have it easier.  I remember the english major friends of Jenn being able to do their classes and work during the day and then go out and play at night.  Not necessarily get wasted, but just enjoy each other’s company.  I feel like I’m constantly running.

But you know, I chose this….   Okay, food now.