Silver and Red

her heartbeat speeds up as he walks out
she’s happy and safe only to find tragedy in love
the knife floats across the room to her hand
glinting in the candellight red follows point
she feels the world fading beyond her eyes
her vision is filled with red and silver
intoxicatingly the silver fades to red
a beating heart lying broken on the floor
next to the clothes ripped from her body
her search for eternal rest ends
resulting in a sleep deeper than dreams

and he finds her wrapped in silver and red
his guilty sorrow is so perfectly infinite
he drowns in his acidic tears and bitter cries

proud tears of pain

July 1, 2004

damn it rory ur amazing

Dreamer_Believer

July 1, 2004

Wow, that was just amazing. Take care and I’ll talk to you later *Heather* RYN: I like your idea with the stickers..Hmm, I might have to do that. That and I can’t find most band stickers around here, getting them at Warped works out. Whoo

see there is someone who understands… if i were to have found that I cant even say what i would have done cause i dont know, thank you for responding to my entry… at least there is one person who understands…. it has takken me a long time to stop… first thing I did when I heard was i got out a blade and did a pretty bad number on myself… i nearly died that night but my dad doesnt get it

well im hoping that maybe one of my friends will understand… I didnt tell any of them cause i wasnt sure how they would react…. i guess Im finding out though… thanks… ive had two friends kill themselves, one through oding which is why im scared to death of meds and refuse to take anything even tylenol… now im scared of cutting cause of elizabeth…

i dont expect the pain to go away.. i just cant see myself doing what they did anymore.. i am scared of oding on something and im scared to die from bleeding to death… if i were to kill myself it would involve somthing else… i ahev lost many friends but only 2 by suicide.. i lost my cousin because of a bomb that went off on a ship that the navy seals tried to board.. i hate war and i hate life

eyes of a stranger

July 2, 2004

I found you on random. that was breath-taking.

never_say_never

July 2, 2004

heyyyy RYN, congrats on the allstate-ness. im not a big fan of allstate, just coz the delaware branch is all a lot of politics and bullshit. i made it my 8th and 9th grade years, but not 10th or 11th *grrrr*. i play flute (WRONG instrument. there like 10 bajillion flutists) i mean hell, id LOVE to make it, its amazing bein around musicians for those intense practices. what state did u make it in?

visualisationuk

July 5, 2004

Awesome simply awesome. The metaphor with silver and red being realy neat. You really are turning out some awesome pieces of work at the minute.

wow… depth… a skill not found in today’s unarticulate society… it’s sad… depending on how you look at death and whatnot…. thanks for the note… FYI my story WILL NOT have a happy or remotely joyful ending. It’s gonna be kinda… melodramatic (is that the word I want?) anyway, thanks for the note. ~M-IO~

PS Acidic tears and bitter cries was mine first. I OWN YOUR DIARY!!!

visualisationuk

July 6, 2004

RYN – The bass player from Rammstein actually said that “pain is the best starting point for self expression” and I really think he’s right. Thanks for the notes. My eyes probably are the only part that, in essence haven’t changed even though if they’re stared into long enough tell my life story for me. Gavin 🙂

Hey, found u on random. I saw that u are form NY. What part are u from? I live in Long Island.

RYN: I wasn’t sure if your note was sarcastic… hm… anyway, it’s fine. Acidic tears and bitter cries is just a line I add in a lot of writing because it sums up humanity’s suffering so enjoy the despair of it.

ryn: Yeah, I’ve heard of it. That’s cool 🙂

RYN: Use it away. Spread the word of acidic tears and bitter cries!

Ms. Gestures

July 7, 2004

Hey thanks for the note, I like too….Saw you like to check out all different kinds of music. You should check out the group Anathema, their lyrics are beautiful. -Tara