Rest in Pieces

Never showed much PDA, that shy tall boy. The date ends and I climb out of the car after the prescribed innocent kiss. You sit in the car leaning out the window watching me walk to my front door, smiling in the dark. The final wave goodbye and I reach for my front door. A low whistle emits from your dark parked car. I turn and walk curiously back to your car. You reach out and kiss me deeply, sending my head spinning and sparks shooting all over my body. Looking at me with a mischievious glint in your eye, you whisper good night and pull away, leaving me stunned and warm all over.
Such a memory I’m afraid I’ll never have again. You never want to see me or even talk to me again. You told me so the last time I spoke with you. What ever changed? Where is the quiet romantic man I fell in love with? And why did you let me fall instead of catching me? I trusted you with my heart. And you gave it back in pieces. Look at me. My depth perception must be off again. Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did. It has not healed with time… It just shot down my spine. You look so beautiful tonight, remind me how you laid us down and gently smiled, before you destroyed my life… Would you find it in your heart, to make this go away, and let me rest in pieces? I don’t think you can give me the answers to the questions I’m asking. I don’t think I have any answers either. I wonder if you are hurting as much as I am. If you are as broken as I am. I hope that someday you will lose the control you seem to still have over me. As years go by, maybe this pain will somehow set me free. And I can finally rest… Look at me. My depth perception must be off again. You got much closer than I thought you did. I’m in your reach. You held me in your hands… Would you find it in your heart, to make this go away and let me rest… in pieces.