Painting

I want to draw something beautiful
Something that means something to me
And no one else the same way
People look at it and say
That is amazing
Wonder what she feels like
They have no idea
I wish I could draw a double-edged star
Engrave in something permenant
Fill it with color, red and black
It would be my happiness and sadness
It would be my life
But I have no talent for drawing
Pens and paper don’t do what I want
But a knife and my skin
Now that expresses what I want