Never letting on the way that I feel

So I took her off my buddy list.

Jenny might be on to something here. I don’t know why I always get involved with people that have so many problems and why I get so close to them. I make friends with their parents and siblings and friends, even though I can usually tell early on how destructive things could get. I think part of it is my desire to help people. If I can make their lives better for just a moment, I’ll be happy. I think that was part of the beginning of my friendship with Megan. She needed an out, a place to get away and I could provide her with that. Somewhere along the line we became friends and sisters. She cares about me as much as I care about her. And I’ve never doubted her friendship, not once. Heather and I weren’t really like that. We became friends because we saw each other so much and then sort of through Rob and Ali. Maybe we were just the same though. Everything was going on with McN and she and I could confide in each other. And then I could give her the out she needed. I still don’t get what happened and why she hates me so much and what I did. I probably never will. I mean, as much as I want to know, I don’t want to talk to her again.

And my words will be here when I?m gone
As I’m fading away against the wind
And the words you left me linger on
As I’m failing again now, never to change this

And I’m sympathetic,
never letting on I feel the way I do
As I’m falling apart again at the seam

And it seems I’m alone here, hollow again
As I’m flailing again against the wind
And the scars I am left with swallow again
As I’m failing again now, never to change this

And I’m sympathetic,
never letting on I feel the way I do
As I’m falling apart again at the seam
And I’m sympathetic,
never letting on I feel the way I do
As I’m falling apart again at the seam

The same old feelings are taking over
and I can’t seem to make them go away
And I can’t take all the pressure sober,
but I can’t seem to make it go away
The same old feelings are taking over
and I can’t seem to make them go away
And I can’t take all the pressure sober
(I can’t make it go away. I can’t make it go away)

And I’m sympathetic,
never letting on I feel the way I do
As I’m falling apart again at the seam
And I’m sympathetic,
never letting on I feel the way I do
As I’m falling apart again at the seam
And I’m falling, falling, falling,
falling, falling, falling, falling
Apart again at the seam.

Sympathetic ~ Seether