My Bridge

Hello.

Have we met?

I didn’t think so.

We should keep it that way.

Why?

Haven’t you heard?

I’m a crazy bitch with problems beyond belief. You wouldn’t want to know me.

Oh. You are still there.

Well, don’t say I didn’t warn ya!

I hurt everyone around me.

How? See that guy over there?

He was in love with me.

Really. And I pushed him away. One of the greatest guys on earth and one of the best things to ever happen to me and I screwed him over.

Yeah. We are still friends. But sometimes it hurts too much to talk to him.

What else have I done?

Well, see that girl over there? She asked for my help. Practically begged for it. But I was too self-involved to notice or even care.

Yeah, she seems ok and I think she’s doing better. But no thanks to me.

You still don’t believe how horrible I can be, do you.

I have ignored friends and screamed when I shouldn’t have.

Yeah, I know everyone makes mistakes. But mine are too many to count.

Her? Yeah, she was my best friend. Betrayed her completely. We don’t even talk anymore.

No, she didn’t screw up. I did.

Oh that guy with the badge. He and I were friends. But I messed up his life too. Supported him rather than trying to get him out of a bad situation. I do that a lot.

Yeah, I agree you need to support your friends, but sometimes you should tell them when they are messing up. Sometimes I think I shouldn’t have let so many things go. Maybe I would be ok. Maybe I would have friends.

No, no, no. Trust me, you don’t want to be my friend. I hurt my friends.

What? I don’t need friends to support me. I’ll just end up hurting them.

Yeah, I know I’ll end up alone. But then I won’t have anymore guilt.

The night is beautiful, I agree.

This bridge is the best for looking at stars.

I just wish those people down there would stop yelling. They are ruining my moment up here. Well, I think you should go now. I have something to do.

Its just something I have to take care of. Do my part to make the world a better place.

I know I don’t make sense. I never have and I never will. Reason is not a strong trait in me.

I can’t go back there. They are all the people I have hurt. They are all the people who shouldn’t care about me.

I’m not looking for a reason.

I’ve already found my bridge..
Shelter from cold.
We’re never alone.
Coordinate brain and mouth.
Then ask me what it’s like to have myself so figured out.
I wish I knew.

I hope this song starts a craze.
The kind of song that ignites the airwaves.
The kind of song that makes people glad to be where they are with who ever they’re there with.
This is war.
Every line is about who I don’t wanna write about anymore.
I hope you come down with something they can’t diagnose, don’t have the cure for.
Holding on to your grudge.
Oh, it’s so hard to have someone to love.
And keeping quiet is hard.
Cause you can’t keep a secret if it never was a secret to start.
At least pretend you didn’t want to get caught.

We’re concentrating on falling apart.
We were contenders, now throwing the fight.
I just wanna believe… in us.

Oh, we’re so k..k..k..contraversial.
We are entirely smooth.
We admit to the truth.
We are the best at what we do.
And these are the words you wish you wrote down.
This is the way you wish your voice sounds.
Handsome and smart.
Oh, my tongue’s the only muscle in my body that works harder than my heart.
And it’s all from watching TV.
And from speeding up my breathing.
Wouldn’t stop if I could.
Oh, it hurts to be this good.
You’re holding on to your grudge.
Oh, it hurts to always have to be honest with the one that you love. Oh, so let it go.

We’re concentrating on falling apart.
We were contenders, now throwing the fight.
I just wanna believe…
We’re concentrating on falling apart.
We were contenders, now throwing the fight.
I just wanna believe… in us.

This is the craze only we can bestow.
This is the price you pay for loss of control.
This is the break in the battle.
This is the closest of calls.
This is the reason you’re alone.
This is the reason you fall.

Okay I Believe you, But My Tommy Gun Don’t ~ Brand New