melt these frozen tears

I have to give something up
My dreams, my life
I don’t want to die
But I feel like I have nothing to live for
Friends only support so much of me
I need something to pour my soul into
Something that you don’t discuss in Hammett’s Learning Center
In my last hour I need to know that I spent my life
Pouring my life into something worthwhile
I want to draw something that means something to somebody
I want to know I can soar forever above the moors
And sit beside a pregnant teenager
Something in my own language
I don’t want to make anyone proud
I don’t want to live up to their expectations
I don’t even want to be forever remembered
I just want to know I’ve lived my life to the fullest
I feel like I’ve already done that
So its time to go
And end the dream thats turning into a nightmare
I did my best and went as far as I can
So now its time to end this life
Before I bcome a walking death angel
A corpse that once contained a soul
A shell that once contained a heart
I’m not strong or amazing
Nothing has ever happened to me and yet I feel dead
Even my last support is quickly dwindeling
A child of Israel who has lost her way
Forever I wander amongst the souls in the land of the living
Just a shadow without a light to give it justification
I am a sorrow without the justification of pain
Gabriel, tell God I’m sorry
Michael, protect my family and friends
I love you all