makes me wanna lose myself in your arms

I talked for a few minutes to my pastor tonight about Megan and Mike and me.  Sounds like a dirty love triangle but its not.  I told him about plans being started for moving back to NY.  He was sad and I knew and I need to tell him it makes me sad too.  I need to express how much he and his family mean to me.  I’ll get there.

He put his finger on my very current problem.  I’m mentally, emotionally, spiritually and physically exhausted.  I don’t mean tired, I mean exhausted.  To the point where lifting my arms is painful.  I’m going to take a nap now and then head back into work.  I think its Sunday riht now.  I’ve been awake since Saturday morning, although it really doesn’t feel like it.  It feels shorter.  Or longer.  I can’t even figure it out.

But this song echoes in my ears after last night’s conversation with Mike.

Somethin’ in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
There’s somethin’ in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life

If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I’ve been so alone
If you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my world the way you’ve done

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I’m all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I’m all the way back where I belong

A window breaks, down a long, dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I’m alright, ’cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see, through the dark there is light

Well, if you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I’ve waited for your touch
And if you knew how happy you are making me
I never thought that I’d love anyone so much

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I’m all the way the back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I’m all the way back where I belong
It feels like I’m all the way back where I belong

Feels Like Home ~ Randy Newman