living for me

Which is easier to do
live for me or live for you
my childhood teachings and brainwashings
tell me to live for others
and forget what i want
and so i have
at least the best i can
and i burned out
the candel burned at both ends
and oh the light was bright
but now the darkness sets in
they tell me to live for me
they tell me do what i want
but after 20 years of never doing that
i honestly don’t know how
the steps i do take seem selfish
maybe i was living a semi-charmed life
my time ran out and purpose fulfilled
but someone saved me from death
forcing a life on me worse than death