Little sleep, lots of coffee and a cigarette

i just wish everything would be okwhen will everything be ok?
Everything is so fucking confusing. Last night was the ROI concert, but I didn’t get to see them play because we left before they went on. Manny came with us and he was acting all weird and annoying. Almost like he was jealous, but we are not together and he knows all this. Least I thought he did. I’m really not sure what is up with him. When its good its really good but when its bad it fucking sucks. I just want to be able to chill and have a good time with him. And sometimes its ok but sometimes its not.

Chevy had a seizure today. I’ve never seen him like that before. It really freaked me out. Thankfully I stayed sane. Least as sane as I could for me. He’s ok now I guess but he is still sick. I wasn’t really afraid of him. Just of hurting him. Its really hard. And Heather is freaking out like no other, but I really can’t blame her cause it is her puppy and she already lost one dog to the same thing. I just wish everything would be ok, but I know it won’t and it never will be. Where are my rose-colored glasses? This used to be my playground. This used to be my childhood dreams.

Least my boys are playing tonight. Even if it is their last show. I just really want to go hear them play and try and relax a little bit. If I can. Little sleep, lots of coffee and a few cigarettes. My life revolves on….