January 12, 2004

life of an empath

i’ve gone and done it again
gotten in the middle of it all
i used to blindly side with her
but now i see the other side
the other point of view
she doesn’t want to see it
she doesn’t want to give in a little
she’s content hating the world she’s in
i’m not justified in passing judgement
i didn’t live there and i don’t know
but empathically i feel
and i’m hurting too
but instead of only feeling
her anger and pain
i now feel everyone’s anger and pain
i carry twice the weight
twice the emotion, twice the frustration
we are a depressed world
failing to see the beauty in the bellows
so i sit and drive, focusing on the music
to ease my pain as hers spills out
through screams and curses and words
since when did emotionally pain
become physically painful
i’m having trouble breathing
and she doesn’t even know
i carry my pain somewhere
buried by the world’s pain
someday i’ll be ok
i’ll be able to breathe
without feeling a stab of pain
that will be the day
when my body is lowered
and my soul is released
until then my back is bent
and my heart aches
as i carry the weight of the world on my shoulders

f**k u! – lets take a look at ourself shall we? cause u are so full of sh*t u cant see halfway up ur ass (hint hint ahem MIRROR) – if u talked about me like that id probably punch u – oh but wait u have… sorry i owe u a punch – get a life sometime and stop pretending u kno what the hells going on – because ur f**king completely clueless –

i think that you are the one hating the world. not her. stop trying to understand everyone elses lives and just figure out your own. if you want attention, just get a pet. they love you unconditionally.

where the f*ck should i start? sh*t u have serious issues – that note was so f*cking rude – u obviously have no balls – grow some – maybe that would solve ur men problems – its a wonder that people stay friends with you – oh i forgot they dont – i hope u have a nice life too – im so f*cking sorry for everything