I hope you choke on every word you said

This weekend was just strange beyond belief. The Matchbook show was amazing. Seriously amazing. I missed the begining of their set but after I got there, they played every song I needed to hear that night. Just what I needed, know what I mean? And then Kristen, Kelly, Laura and I hung afterwards waiting to say goodbye to Andy and Judas and Ryan. But all the psycho baby fans were screaming for them, so we sat on the deck and just waited. We basically left when the guys did too. But Andy is sweet. I never think he’ll remember who I am but then he’ll come up and give me a hug and know my name. Makes me feel special. Granted I feel special when more than 3 people show up at my parties, so it doesn’t take much. But it was a fun show. MBR doesn’t typically do encores. But we are special. Half the crowd – the annoying 14 year old girls who I want to kill – started screaming one more song, like morons. The other wiser older half screamed for Fizzlewink. So after a while the 14 year old babies gave up and a few minutes after that MBR came back. Andy was like ‘You guys fucking suck.’ Because its us and because we know Fizzlewink, they come back out. It was great. And they did this hysterical cover of ‘Rape Me.’ And then you could tell who was 14 and who knew the words or even what song he was talking about. Ugh, makes me feel old though.
Honestly though. Even though the little bitches piss me off, I’m happy for MBR that they have made it so far. I just wish they would have a concert where the little 14 year old bitches weren’t allowed. I mean they stand there and hyperventilate if one of the band members even glances in their direction. To me, that kind of obsession is just too much. But I guess if I met Julia Roberts or Sean Connery I mighy hyperventilate. I dunno. As big as any star is, they are still only human. And for all I know, Julia Roberts is the biggest bitch in the world. I like her work, but I don’t know her personally. I mean don’t get me wrong, I love MBR. But Ryan can be a dick. Flat out he can be. Doesn’t mean I love MBR less, it just means I don’t want Ryan to father my children like those stupid groupies. Lol. I really hate those groupies. They make me insane. Laura was really scared that I was going to tear someone’s head off. It was amusing. Unfortunately I know too many people in Poughkeepsie who I would rather avoid. I’m going to have to start going to shows in CT or across the river. Susan was there and I’m not sure if Heather was there or not. Prolly not, cause she probably didn’t have a ride. But I didn’t see her. Maybe she was avoiding me while I was avoiding Susan. Hey, whatever works. I didn’t have to talk to either of them so I don’t care.
And the amusing homeless man. I’ve seen him at the last show I was at and Alex said he’s seen him around too. He keeps telling people he’s getting a divorce and his wife kicked him out 2 days ago and he’s just looking for some change to get him through the next day. Its kinda sad, but at the same time pathetic. If you really need help, get some from people who can really help you, not a bunch of kids at a concert. Especially when we’ve all seen you here the past 2 months, his story will change slightly every so often. But he’s always just about to get a divorce and his wife kicked him out two days ago.

Oh well stupid bitch who can’t answer phones – I’ll be back later