girl on the verge

I hate it when I’m in this kind of a mood. The kind of mood where I do way more damage and good to every and anyone, including myself. There is something that is again fighting to break free and its a harsh battle to keep it locked up. Anger that I thought I had let go of has been resurfacing. Old fears I thought I had overcome are threatening to rule and ruin my life again.

And a woman who once almost destroyed my entire world is at it again.

Some days I’m just too tired to go on.

Observation
My situation
Ain’t looking up
I’m having stupid suicidal thoughts
Complication
My hesitation
To cut you off
Has put me at a total loss

I’m a girl on the verge of a nervous breakdown
I’m all messed up
Baby all cause of you
I can’t sleep
I’m in too deep
I’m a girl on the verge of a major meltdown
I may be all freaked out and confused
But I still wouldn’t wanna be you
I’m a girl on the verge of a nervous breakdown

Devastation
My reputation
Is headed south
My medications running out

I’m a girl on the verge of a nervous breakdown
I’m all messed up
Baby all cause of you
I can’t sleep I went to deep
I’m a girl on the verge of a major meltdown
I may be all freaked out and confused
But I still wouldn’t wanna be you
I’m a girl on the verge of a nervous breakdown

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Congratulations
I’m your creation
Well how bout that
You better lock your doors cause the bitch is back

I’m a girl on the verge of a nervous breakdown
I’m all messed up
Baby all cause of you
I can’t sleep I went to deep
I’m a girl on the verge of a major meltdown
I might be all freaked out and confused
But I still wouldn’t wanna be you
I’m a girl on the verge of a nervous breakdown
I’m a girl on the verge of a nervous breakdown
On the verge of a nervous breakdown

Girl on the Verge ~ Sarah Hudsone day.
I’ll make you say:

(Alive! Alive!
Alive with love,
alive with love tonight)

No, I won’t let them take you,
won’t let them take you
Hell no no, oh no,
I won’t let them take you,
won’t let them take you
Hell no no.

Our Treblinka is alive with the glory of love!
Treblinka, alive, with the glory of love, yeah!

Should they catch us
and dispatch us
to those separate work camps, yeah
I’ll dream about you.
I will not doubt you
with the passing of time, oh yeah
Should they kill me,
your love will fill me
as warm as the bullets, yeah
I’ll know my purpose.
This war was worth this.
I won’t let you down.
No, I won’t
No, I won’t
No, I won’t

(Alive! Alive!
Alive with love, alive with love tonight)

No, I won’t let them take you,
won’t let them take you
Hell no no, oh no,
I won’t let them take you,
won’t let them take you
Hell no no.

Alive with the Glory of Love ~ Say Anything