Breaking the Habit
Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I’m picking me apart again
You all assume
I’m safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again
I don’t want to be the one
The battles always choose
Cause inside I realize
That I’m the one confused
I don’t know what’s worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don’t know why I instigate
And say what I don’t mean
I don’t know how I got this way
I know it’s not alright
So I’m
Breaking the habit
I’m breaking the habit
Tonight
Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again
I don’t want to be the one
The battles always choose
Cause inside I realize
That Im the one confused
I don’t know what’s worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don’t know why I instigate
And say what I don’t mean
I don’t know how I got this way
I’ll never be alright
So I’m breaking the habit
I’m breaking the habit
Tonight
I’ll paint it on the walls
Cause I’m the one at fault
I’ll never fight again
And this is how it ends
I don’t know what’s worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don’t know how I got this way
I’ll never be alright
So I’m breaking the habit
I’m breaking the habit
I’m breaking the habit
Tonight
Breaking the Habit
The song starts in typical Linkin Park style. The first vocals are soft, reflecting the self-searching the song talks about. The frustration and anger is heard in the chorus. The whole song represents the pain, hurt and frustration I have felt.
This song relates to the two years after I graduated from high school. I was a mess, picking fights with the peole I loved and hurting everyone, including myself. I was saying things I really didn’t mean. My cure became cutting. It became a habit with me and I thought I would never be alright again. I found out recently I am bipolar, which caused my moods to swing and my interaction with people to be so off balance. As I went on medication and therapy, this song appealed more and more to me. It relates intensely to my life still today.