Blaming the past away

Between the piano songs and guitar chords
Lies the secret to our connection
Time and pressure has cooked us
We are done and we need to just grow up
Find the next person to destroy and rebuild
Cause you and I are done, maybe a little too well
It’s always my fault and I’m to blame again
You wonder why I feel so guilty
While you point at me and make me the reason
The reason you were hurt and changed
Molded into the man you are today
Well don’t blame me for any of that anymore
I didn’t tell you to change like you did
That was your choice and your work
I have no more control over you
I’ve relinquished my hold over you
Even if no one else wants me to let go
So stop blaming me for the love you can’t escape
I used to do that all to myself as well
And you told me to just get over it
Well, take your own advice and move on
I’ve actually done it, moved away from you
And I didn’t have to run away from our memories
You know you only burned our bridges
I wish you would stop blaming me
I have the weight of the world on my shoulders
And the weight of empathy and twins
I don’t need the heavy burden of your guilt
I can invent my own baggage thank you
I refuse to complicate this new life
I refuse to let you make me crazy
No matter what I refuse you still win
You own too much of my heart for me to win this battle
And it is a battle
So all I can do is beg and pray
Take this burden away from me and from this
Are you still protecting me from pain and hurt?
I’m still protecting you from me
But somehow I still seem to hurt you
So unless I can stop this madness
I’ll disappear into the darkness and fog
Wrapped in the mystery you once solved
Never to hurt you again, never to be hurt again
What do you want from me?
I didn’t beg you for anything
Cause I was trying to let you let go
Damn it! Why won’t you just let go?
I don’t want to lose you
I’ve lost enough for my 20 years
But unless I can release all the guilt you gave me
Unless I can stop hurting you as much as you say I am
I’ll lose myself in him and disappear from your sight
Don’t think I don’t need you, that I don’t want you
But I’ve been stronger than needs or wants once
And I can do again and I can do it with you
So the decision is in your hands
Along with my heart and my trust
I finally learned to trust you
Now I need to learn not to blame me
Remind me what you did wrong in our relationship
Can you do that without blaming it on me?
Can’t you let go what happened last December
So much time has passed, so much has changed
But you don’t seem to let go
And I still hear the blame in your voice
I still listen to your overanalyzation of us
I’m trying to let go and stop thinking so much
Let it flow. Be the stoner without the drugs.
Take a lesson from the blonde-haired Irishman
Maybe you two balance each other out now
So maybe you need to both take a lesson from each other

Please just let me go, forgiven and guiltless
Can’t you just forgive me?