Bad News

I hate hate hate getting bad news at work.  Right now all I want to do is crawl into a little ball and cry myself to sleep.  I’m not going to get the job at the college.  And basically the Human Resources woman told me I’d never get a job at the college ever again.  Just when I was starting to think this place might not be too bad.  I’m angry and mad and frustrated and I have work to do.  So I have to ignore the empty sinking feeling and try to focus on my work.  I have to work here and then rehearsals all this afternoon and evening, while pretending everything is fine.  Just when I’ve so been enjoying being honestly happy.

Guess its back to the pathetic want-ads and begging my parents for rent money.