and they say that a hero could save us

Twelve in12

Reading
The Game of Kings ~ Dorothy Dunnett
Pride and Prejudice ~ Jane Austen
Sentimental Education ~ Gustave Flaubert

Finished
Mirror, Mirror ~ Gregory Macguire
Witchling ~ Yasmine Galenorn
Changeling ~ Yasmine Galenorn
Something Wicked ~ Catherine Mulvany
Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince ~ J.K. Rowling
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows ~ J.K. Rowling
Myst: Book of Atrus ~ Rand Miller, Robyn Miller and David Wingrove

This is what I hate about being a girl and dealing with guys. I haven’t heard from The Guy since before the New Year. I don’t want to stress or fret but I’m starting to a little. Was I reading the situation completely wrong? Is he hooking up with his ex-girlfriend? Is he pining after the ex and forgetting about me? I mean we’re not official, so I have no claim on him, just as he has no claim on me. But still….

I hate being a girl

So I’m now in Florida visiting the Grandmas. Its been interesting so far. I’m absolutly exhausted, due to the 4am rise time this morning. GW (maternal Grandma) told me to take a nap, but if I did that I’d never get to sleep tonight. But the flip side is I’m EXHAUSTED! I’m also sick of thinking about The Guy and wondering what’s going on. I don’t want to be that girl. I ended up writing on the plane to get my mind off of him. And considering it was early, its a little odd.

Have you ever watched a sunrise? Watch the sky slowly turn from the black of night to the red of the day? Now imagine it from the sky, above the clouds. The sun doesn’t really rise as much as it peeks through clouds and sneaks its way into the sky. I got to watch that this morning as I flew from NY to Atlanta on my way to Florida. THe sun finally peeking above the line of the horizon wasn’t nearly as exciting as the game of hide-and-seek as the sun broke the earth’s horizon, but not the clouds. Imagine if you could see the sun rising through the ocean; sea creatures casting shadows on the land. Its one of those amazing things about living on a round planet.

Amazing thing, this round planet of ours. I’ve been reading Myst books and thinking about the creation of worlds. The D’Ni were bound by certain natural laws. Laws they could bend but not break. God was boung only by His imagination when He created this universe. And He thoughts of everything. If you could create your own world, with its own natural laws – what would it be like? Would it mirror much of this world and its laws? Or would you create completely new concepts. Remember nature’s laws, whatever you decide, cannot be broken. How would it work? Are we God’s rough draft or His masterpiece?

I think we are a masterpiece. I was helping my little cousin study Geography last night. They were concentration on climate and vegetation in North America. And I was quietly marveling at the world and laws God created. And then He created Man. (And by Man, I mean women too.) The world God set into motion has changed, and dare I say, evolved into what we know today. He saw the potential and set off the spark. He did the same with Man. And what have we achieved with our potential?

Later…

We’ve been hearing a lot about unsung heroes since 9/11. The firefighter, the rescuers, the passengers of United 93. The hundreds of people who gave their time and efforts in the days and weeks following the attacks. Unsung and unknown no more, they are memoralized and imprinted in everyone’s memory. But watching the flight crew board this morning got me to thinking. The fact that they are still working, willingly boarding these planes is a testament to the human spirit. I don’t know if they think how they put their lives in the path of unknown danger every time they go to work. Soldiers, police and firefighters put themselves knowingly into the path of danger to protect this country. They know the extremem risks they face. I’m not belittling their courage or saying flight crews don’t know the risks. But nothing like 9/11 had ever happened before. No one thought it possible. Do those crews fret and worry? I honestly don’t know. I know I would rather face a known danger than an unknown danger. The faces of the flight crew are not filled with fear or anxiety when you board a plane. They are reassuring and welcoming. Are they really that unconcerned or are they faking it? The human spirit is an amazing thing. We suffered a great tragedy. But these flight crews continue to fly, continue to work. Just like the firefighters and policemen, they face potential danger everytime they go to work. “The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.” We are not afraid. We are fighters. So to every flight crew that goes to work, to every parent that shows their children not to fear the planes, to every person who refuses to hide under a rock and cower, I say you are the unsung hereos. And my message to those who would attempt to send us running for the hills: BRING IT!!

I am so high. I can hear heaven.
I am so high. I can hear heaven.

Woah, wherever,
No heaven
Don’t hear me.

And they say that a hero could save us,
I’m not gonna stand here and wait,
I’ll hold to the wings of the eagles,
Watch as we all fly away.

Someone told me love would all save us,
But how can that be,
Look what love gave us,
World full of killing,
And blood-spilling, that world never came.

And they say that a hero could save us,
I’m not gonna stand here and wait,
I’ll hold on to the wings of the eagles,
Watch as we all fly away.

Now that the world is at ending,
Its love that I’m sending to you,
It is the love of the hero,
And that’s what I fear it won’t do.

And they say that a hero could save us,
I’m not gonna stand here and wait,
I’ll hold on to the wings of the eagles,
Watch as we all fly away.

And they’re watching us,
They’re watching us,
As we all fly away,
And they’re watching us,
And they’re watching us,
As we all fly away
Yeah,
And they’re watching us
And they´re watching us
As we all fly away.

Hero ~ Nickleback

I wanted to edit this and add part of a note I wrote to CrippledStupid because he makes a really good point.

HE WROTE:
I don’t disagree with what you write very often, but I almost do about the flight crew. I don’t deny that they have to be a bit weary now, but if you compare the dangers they face on a daily basis to the dangers cops and firefighters face, I’d still rather be part of a flight crew (not that you argued each profession was just as dangerous), especially after 9/11. It’sprobably never been safer to work on a plane.

I ANSWERED:
You are totally right that cops and firemen face more dangers and I agree that flying is almost safer now than ever.
Although I do have a theory that if criminals or terrorists really want to do something, they are going to try their hardest to do it and we probably won’t be able to stop them. Even with all the security we have (at airports, borders, schools, etc.) I really believe its only a matter of time before they successfully strike again.
I was pretty tired when I wrote that and I was actually thinking about fear and such. The image a father sends his kid when he boards a plane was in my head. It was similiar to the memory I have of firefighter friends going into a burning building. It also made me think of the dad who opens the scary closet to show his kid there is no monster. We have nothing to fear but fear itself. If we teach our children fear, we create more and more fear. Its a black pit. But if we teach our children courage, we create more and more courage. That’s more the point I was trying to make.
I know there are holes with what I wrote and you poked right through them. But thats why I love your notes!! 😉 Thanks hun!