11:11

We used to spend all night online talking. My roomie would yell and throw things to make me go to sleep. I was starting to love you. Do you remember those nights when I worked at the hotel? You would talk all night to me, keeping me up and keeping my sanity in check. We had 7 hour conversations that could have lasted longer if the sun had only stayed down. I was falling hard for you. We spent an evening in a foreign city. It seemed almost sureal and magical. We were so close and yet so distant. Words we couldn’t say, feelings we couldn’t express. Why do we always do this? Why do we keep our feelings locked up inside? I wish you could take my hand and understand everything in my head. We could go to the concert and watch our friends on stage. I miss high school. Things weren’t so complicated. Or we were too naive to notice. I have few memories of romantic times spent with you. My memories of you are phone calls, emails and instant messages. Why does our relationship work when we are 800 miles away but never when we are standing face to face?

I’m sorry I love you too much to tell you.