04/20/2009

I think I’ve been too flowerly.  Too wordy and dogdy in my explanation of my life right now.  I don’t want to admit it all out loud because that makes it real.  It means I have to deal with it and address it.  But here’s a start.  In simplest terms.

Problem:  I’m depressed.
Solution:  Medication – I finally found the right balance in January.
Next Problem:  I stopped taking the medication.
Leads to:  Inability to function.
Leads to:  Flunking out.  Again.
Leads to:  Lack of graduation.

Desire:  Seminary in Michigan which would led to job as church musician****Desire has tendency to change and morph.  Completely allowed and acceptable, even encouraged.
Status:  Due to above mentioned problems, permanently put on hold.
Solution:  Get help, you moron.

Yeah, that’s all I’ve got for right now.  I’m admitting there’s a problem.  Shit.