no.

watch because im still not crying. cutting off the worthlessness and lying. i am done. done and what done means is done. over it. over it. no more scars, no more dysfunction. we are done. you and me AND you and me. i will miss, because i love you. but i am done. its over. you and me and are over. so give me this one answer, is it as good as you believed it would be? is it as amazing as you wanted it to be? i will sit in the shadow, relax and watch the world unfold. there is a universe in all of us and you and i, we are on opposite sides. i love, i miss, i hate, i crave…. but that is all in the past. i have become something else. something bitter. something callous. something unable to move forward, yet unable to move back. you are…. happy. at least for now. and i hope that it continues, i hope you get married and have children and enjoy your mediocrity…. you have no way of knowing that you have destroyed me. and i wont give you that power. you are both of you, worthless. i hope that someday you realize just how mismatched you are. but enjoy your existence, knowing that she cheats on you, knowing that he wishes you were more. enjoy it. enjoy your delusions, your substitutions. enjoy your denial.

maybe next lifetime, we will make the right choices.

and until then, i will miss you.