Gone

I haven’t seen my boyfriend since Sunday. I haven’t heard from him either.

He went back to his old hometown to deal with his past (namely court) and I still haven’t heard from him. It’s like he disappeared off the face of the planet. He called him mom collect right after court and let her know what he was up to, but he never called me. After 4 days, it makes me think that I no longer have a relationship. It’s gone. It’s done. He’s probably gotten back into the drugs he tried to hard to stay away from, or maybe went and saw his ex. I have no way of knowing what’s going on.

People tell me to move on. He obviously doesn’t care, or he would have called and talked to me. He was always good at keeping in touch with me. We spent every single day together.

It hurts more than I could have imagined. I really thought we had something special…I guess I was just being naive and stupid, as usual.

My heart is ripped to shreds.